One of my hopes in undertaking this 30ish-Day Challenge was to regain a sense of purpose and direction. I am not content simply filling time; I want to make the most of what God has given me by giving the best that I have to my work and the people in my life. It’s so easy – so VERY EASY – to get caught up in things and lose time. Lots of it. And before you know it, a life is spent.
I want to spend what time I have doing things that matter. I don’t want to look back and think, “Why in the world did I spend all of my time doing _____________________?” I want to live out God’s unique plan for my life. Figuring out what that is can be tricky because there are LOTS of great things within my grasp. But not every opportunity or activity is for me. Just because it’s good, doesn’t necessarily mean it is part of His unique plan for my life.
I have been reading the book, “Own Your Life” by Sally Clarkson, and it is been a valuable tool in this regard. After several days of journaling through the questions at the end of each chapter, I had a huge moment of clarity:
I am not meant to continue photographing weddings.
If you are under contract with me for 2015, don’t panic – I will be there for your big day as promised!!! It’s just that my body has changed since surgery. After working two events this month, there has been a load of swelling that has me concerned about the effects of working long hours carrying 8+ pounds of equipment. There is a high failure rate associated with pelvic floor reconstruction and the risks associated with further surgery could mean the end of my photography career as a whole.
As I mentioned last month, my website will be undergoing a massive redo. Turns out the timing couldn’t have been more perfect with this recent revelation. I just wanted to get word out now because who knows who long this massive redo could take! So for the record, I will not be taking on any new wedding clients from this point forward.
Changes like this can be sad but I want to remain a photographer for the long haul and will do whatever it takes to make that happen!