This is life right now for a number of reasons:
1. My husband just started an interim position at work that requires more time and has a higher level of responsibility.
2. Summer is winding down, and like you, we are trying to squeeze out every last drop.
3. My fall calendar is filling quickly with both senior and family photo sessions.
4. School is around the corner (which means shopping for clothes/supplies and filling out forms and attending open houses).
I am sure many of you are feeling very much the same way.
To make things worse, I’ve been dealing with some pain in my hip and lower back. I began seeing a physical therapist a few weeks ago when several new symptoms appeared. So I made another appointment with my doctor. She referred me to a specialist, which meant another doctor appointment. Turns out I have multiple pelvic organs caving in on each other. Which requires some hefty surgery. In addition to a lengthy recovery. Because of my “young” age, there is a risk of it happening again after surgery so my doctor has recommended a lifetime lifting restriction. Which will obviously impact my business in a huge way as a photographer used to carrying two bags, two cameras, and multiple lenses to each session. It means never lifting anything heavier than a gallon of milk… which has me wondering how I will get the vacuum cleaner upstairs or what my weekend scrapbooking retreats will look like or how I will take care of grandbabies someday. It means needing help to drain a pot of boiling potatoes, the end of winter shoveling, carrying smaller loads to and from the laundry room, and doubling the number of bags I use at the grocery store.
It also means a lot of things that are scary to me.
Interestingly enough, a few weeks ago my youngest son woke me in the middle of the night. He knew nothing about what I was experiencing, nothing about the doctor appointments on the calendar, nothing about what I was freaking myself out about on the Internet. He simply woke me because he couldn’t sleep. He had things on his mind. So I showed him what I do whenever the “head stuff” gets in the way of my peace.
We started reading scripture:
“For I am the Lord your God Who holds your right hand, and Who says to you, ‘Do not be afraid. I will help you.” Isaiah 41:13
Those who know your name will put their trust in You. For You, O Lord, have never left alone those who look for You. Psalm 9:10
“Have I not told you? Be strong and have strength of heart! Do not be afraid or lose faith. For the Lord your God is with you anywhere you go.” Joshua 1:9
And it dawned on me that those precious hours with my son in the middle of the night where not only for him. But for me.
Needless to say, there will be some big changes taking place in the coming months. I haven’t worked out all of the details but my plan at this point is to work through October (a limited number of spots remain so if you are interested in scheduling a fall session, let me know ASAP the spots have been filled) and take the months of November, December, and January off. I will keep you posted as I know more!