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This is life right now for a number of reasons:

1.  My husband just started an interim position at work that requires more time and has a higher level of responsibility.
2.  Summer is winding down, and like you, we are trying to squeeze out every last drop.
3.  My fall calendar is filling quickly with both senior and family photo sessions.
4.  School is around the corner (which means shopping for clothes/supplies and filling out forms and attending open houses).

I am sure many of you are feeling very much the same way.

To make things worse, I’ve been dealing with some pain in my hip and lower back.  I began seeing a physical therapist a few weeks ago when several new symptoms appeared.  So I made another appointment with my doctor.  She referred me to a specialist, which meant another doctor appointment.  Turns out I have multiple pelvic organs caving in on each other.  Which requires some hefty surgery.  In addition to a lengthy recovery.  Because of my “young” age, there is a risk of it happening again after surgery so my doctor has recommended a lifetime lifting restriction.  Which will obviously impact my business in a huge way as a photographer used to carrying two bags, two cameras, and multiple lenses to each session.  It means never lifting anything heavier than a gallon of milk which has me wondering how I will get the vacuum cleaner upstairs or what my weekend scrapbooking retreats will look like or how I will take care of grandbabies someday.  It means needing help to drain a pot of boiling potatoes, the end of winter shoveling, carrying smaller loads to and from the laundry room, and doubling the number of bags I use at the grocery store.

It also means a lot of things that are scary to me. 

Interestingly enough, a few weeks ago my youngest son woke me in the middle of the night.  He knew nothing about what I was experiencing, nothing about the doctor appointments on the calendar, nothing about what I was freaking myself out about on the Internet.  He simply woke me because he couldn’t sleep.  He had things on his mind.  So I showed him what I do whenever the “head stuff” gets in the way of my peace.

We started reading scripture:

“For I am the Lord your God Who holds your right hand, and Who says to you, ‘Do not be afraid.  I will help you.”  Isaiah 41:13

Those who know your name will put their trust in You.  For You, O Lord, have never left alone those who look for You.  Psalm 9:10

“Have I not told you?  Be strong and have strength of heart!  Do not be afraid or lose faith.  For the Lord your God is with you anywhere you go.”  Joshua 1:9

And it dawned on me that those precious hours with my son in the middle of the night where not only for him.  But for me.

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Needless to say, there will be some big changes taking place in the coming months.  I haven’t worked out all of the details but my plan at this point is to work through October (a limited number of spots remain so if you are interested in scheduling a fall session, let me know ASAP the spots have been filled) and take the months of November, December, and January off.  I will keep you posted as I know more!

René - August 16, 2014 - 8:09 pm

Tina-so sorry to hear of your health issues. Oh my goodness. I’m so thankful you have three strong men/boys in your life who love you and are going to be by your side. I’ve emailed you a few times but wonder if it’s going in your junk mail? You’re in my prayers as you sort all this out. Love you…René. PS does Carley have a date reserved for October? She’s out of town right now and I know she was going to contact you.

Sharon - August 16, 2014 - 11:33 pm

Oh Tina,
I just read your page and I am still digesting this challenge you are now facing with your health. Just know that I am thinking of you and praying for miraculous healing from our Heavenly Father.
A prayer for the strength to realize our dreams
You have blessed me with many gifts, God, but I know it is my task to realize them. May I never underestimate my potential, may I never lose hope. May I find the strength to strive for better, the courage to be different, the energy to give all that I have to offer. Amen. Hold strong my Dear. You have a strong support system.
With Love,
Sharon

Tina - August 16, 2014 - 11:53 pm

I’ll take a peek thru my email messages in the morning to track down your notes, Rene’! Carley told me she wanted a date about a week ago so she’s on my radar. I’ll follow-up with her next week to iron out details. Thank you, thank you for the sweet words.

Tina - August 16, 2014 - 11:53 pm

That means a lot to me, Sharon – thank you!

Cathy Jungwirth - August 18, 2014 - 11:05 am

Wow, Tina, you do have a plate full right now. I will keep you in my prayers and know that God does have a plan in all of this for you and He will be with you every step of the way.

Tina - August 18, 2014 - 11:18 am

Thank you, Cathy. The prayers are greatly appreciated.

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