It means that when you’re scared, you do it anyway!!!
I stumbled upon a piece of scripture this morning that really hit home, especially in light of my last blog post. My paraphrase of Matthew 14:28-32 is below:
And Peter answered Him, “Lord, if it is really you, command me to come to you on the water.“
Jesus said, “Come!” So Peter got out of the boat and started walking towards Him. But when Peter felt the strong wind, he was scared – he began to sink and cried out, “Lord, save me!!!“
Instantly, Jesus reached out his hand catching and holding onto Peter. “Oh such little faith,” He said, “WHY DID YOU DOUBT?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased.
I felt like God was asking ME that question:
Why did you doubt?
Looking back through my life, I thought of the times when I did doubt. Everything from God’s very existence to His character. Whether or not, He was for me. The truth and accuracy of His word. His plan for my life. What I realized in writing this morning, was that during times of doubt my eyes were off of Him and on myself. Instead of trusting Him, I was relying totally and completely on myself. And in doing so, I often felt overwhelmed by emotions, circumstances, chaos, and fear. My plans always had holes.
Truth is, I am full of shortcomings. I am impatient, tend to think in terms of comfort (my comfort), and am easily distracted. As much as I like to plan, those plans have ALWAYS been shortsighted.
This passage, like the song mentioned in my last post, reminded me that keeping my eyes on Christ is the thing that makes me brave. It is seeing the way that He lived and died that makes me mindful of others. It is the thing that compels me to step out of my comfort zone.
When I struggle with doubt it’s not about “the strong wind” that threatens but where I’ve set my sights. My favorite part of the verse is when Peter begins to sink and cries out for Jesus. Instantly, Jesus reached out his hand to catch him.